Week 12: self settling worked!!!!

Lol. This did felt like an achievement. You slept on your own! I did not have to rock you or intervene in any way and you slept for good 2.5 hrs. I must say I was bored and wish you were awake to keep me busy but I am happy that you did. I was kind if worried that I might have to rock you to sleep till your college days but now I can see you will be fine.

Hang in there, buddy!
OOXX

PS: HAPPY VALENTINES DAY!! (Your first one )

Sanity

I question my sanity when you cry and I do not know how to calm you. I want best for you and I want everything g to be perfect. May be that’s why I panic on the first sight of you not being happy. I feel like I am failing. I know this is not a exam and there is no right or wrong but I feel like I go in a spiral of wrongs when you frown and look at me but I cannot figure out your needs.

But when you are calm and specially when you crack tah toothless smile, state right into my eyes and make that cooing sound, I must say I feel like million dollar. My world becomes perfect.

I am sorry, if I am not being a best mom. You have to know, I am trying my best but sometimes the while experience of up and down, gets into me. After constant rocking you to calm you, I feel like screaming and sometimes I do scream which makes it worse. I put you down and you scream more. I seriously do not understand what is wrong, why you are not happy and what I am doing wrong. How can I please you and drift you back to sleep?
And then things fall into pieces and you drift to sleep land. Hallelujah!

Despite all this, I will do this all over again. Yes I will and I know you will find all those button to push me to the edge and question my sanity but I am ready. Bring it on.

Hang in there, buddy
Your mom is learning OOXX

Week 3

Dear sanu,
It is week 3, today. We made your first trip to a temple. It was Chinese Buddhist temple and you Had your first blessings from a monk. Lucky sanu.

I cannot believe you are growing so fast and you are getting stronger and stronger. Your head movement is getting really good and I am a proud mamma 😉

Love you heaps.
OOXX

Week 2 plus

Wow! Time really flies when you are having fun or when you have a new born. So it is true. I have really lost track of time. You will be 3 week old this Friday, I can’t believe it.
We got your birth certificate delivered, today. You are now officially, Reina Shrestha. I hope you like your name. We were tossing between Veena and Reina but at hospital minute after you were born, when we called you Reina you responded, hence we picked Reina.

Love u
OOXX

p.s: mushroom is so scared of your fart, it’s so hilarious. You are really windy n scaring crap out of your brother.

Full term: week 38

Dear sanu,
You won’t believe how relieved I am that we finally made it to full term. After all those drama, and crazy upside downs, we are finally here, yay!

My mummy, your grandma will be flying tonight and will reach here tomorrow. I can tell she is super excited to see you, hence so much rush from her end. You will love her, she is this amazing woman, the best woman you will ever meet.

Hang in there, buddy for few more days, then whenever you are ready.

Love u
OOXX

Ps: your daddy is super excited and got your room ready. Wow, everyone I know is dying to meet you.

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Happy new year

Dear sanu.
Happy new year! Today is Newari new year and we all newars take a day to thank and celebrate our body. Traditionally we eat huge feast and leave some left on the plate to cheat death and tell yamaraaj (the Newari god of death) that our body is fed with all the goodness and he can comeback later since we take care of our body so well.

Hang in there,buddy. Not long to go now.
OOXX

ps: mushroom never leaves my side, these days. He is awaiting passionately to meet you as well just like daddy n myself 😉

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Angry uterus

Is it angry or just doing some practice run before the big marathon?

Dear sanu,
On Monday I had to go for hospital run but boy was I determined not to have you before you are full term. I was like, I am crossing my leg.
I am glad, things fell right into place and I am here, 36 weeks today and you are still there. I can feel you running out of space n my uterus is not helping either. Saying that I am excited to meet you and I want you to be ready when you are ( when you are full term that is). I just read what I typed and I know I already sound like one of those control freak.
I just want you to be ready and the idea of rushing things and then being apart from you scares me.
I already love you so much and I have not literally met you.
Hang in there buddy for 1 more week. OOXX

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