8 years together

8 years together

What? Really? Hard to believe, isn’t it? It’s been 8 yrs when I first met love of my life.
I would like to dedicate this blog to my love. Words cannot express how happy I am that we end up together after yrs of cat and mouse games. Lol, well it was not really cat and mouse game but you know weird dating games. I am so glad that you fell in love with me and made me fall in love with you over and over again. You still give me goose bumps!
Thank you for the hug!

Happy anniversary. Both Sanu and I are eternally grateful for you being in our life and loving us. We love you “dis” much.

OOXX

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Need / have to be strong during self settling

I seriously think I will have to move in with Reina when she moves out to her place (some 20 yrs later). Poor thing, how will she ever sleep without me rocking her and singing to her for an hour? I am also hoping they will invent robotic arms by then, my aged arms will definitely not be able to handle 50 kilo woman! #needstoselfsettle

Week 12: self settling worked!!!!

Lol. This did felt like an achievement. You slept on your own! I did not have to rock you or intervene in any way and you slept for good 2.5 hrs. I must say I was bored and wish you were awake to keep me busy but I am happy that you did. I was kind if worried that I might have to rock you to sleep till your college days but now I can see you will be fine.

Hang in there, buddy!
OOXX

PS: HAPPY VALENTINES DAY!! (Your first one )

Sanity

I question my sanity when you cry and I do not know how to calm you. I want best for you and I want everything g to be perfect. May be that’s why I panic on the first sight of you not being happy. I feel like I am failing. I know this is not a exam and there is no right or wrong but I feel like I go in a spiral of wrongs when you frown and look at me but I cannot figure out your needs.

But when you are calm and specially when you crack tah toothless smile, state right into my eyes and make that cooing sound, I must say I feel like million dollar. My world becomes perfect.

I am sorry, if I am not being a best mom. You have to know, I am trying my best but sometimes the while experience of up and down, gets into me. After constant rocking you to calm you, I feel like screaming and sometimes I do scream which makes it worse. I put you down and you scream more. I seriously do not understand what is wrong, why you are not happy and what I am doing wrong. How can I please you and drift you back to sleep?
And then things fall into pieces and you drift to sleep land. Hallelujah!

Despite all this, I will do this all over again. Yes I will and I know you will find all those button to push me to the edge and question my sanity but I am ready. Bring it on.

Hang in there, buddy
Your mom is learning OOXX